Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Happy 3rd Birthday, Thrill.

For William's birthday, we packed the car with little people and drove to Costco for hotdogs and churros... the kids were SO WELL BEHAVED. I had a wonderful time keeping everyone very organized and somewhat clean. Harper and ketchup are quite a pair... ;)



Following our escapade at Costco, we packed the car again and drove back home. The youngest of the five, Harper and Ben, settled down for naps and the older three had a quiet time in the playroom upstairs. It was wonderful for all involved...

Upon Harper waking up, William got to open his present that had arrived minutes earlier from Grandpa and Grandma Berges... they do a great job of getting the kids the things that they'll remember -- they may not be 'classics', if you will, but none the less, they are the things that are so AWESOME that you remember them well into your later years...

'Mom, do you remember when I got my first lightsaber?'

'Yes, William... it was like 30 years ago. I can't believe you still have it!'




Monday, March 30, 2009

What is "church"?
















In the interest of wanting to discover what God has for Kyle and I, I've been really wrestling with scripture VERSUS our adopted idea of what "church" is. I know what the North American church is... but what does God say church is in His Word?

Please give me a 'nod' and include any scripture references you'd like to share with me. I'm hoping this could be an open forum for a bunch of you out there that have deeply impacted my life, to open and up and share your thoughts. The consideration is this, do NOT begin without first seeking the scripture that drew you to your current understanding of "church" and what God has called your family to.

Thank you!!

Feliz Cumpleanos, William!

For his birthday lunch, William wanted a Costco hotdog. In the interest of money, I invited a few of his friends, Ava and Harper Kalous, to come...


I believe my dream of God calling us to Mexico someday just may be more of a reality than I have allowed myself to hope for... the ability for my children to adapt their bodies to any environment first manifests itself in their ability to adapt to any God-forsaken food I allow them to ingest.

Buena suerte kids! (aka, 'good luck kids!')

Thursday, March 26, 2009

My reality is shifting...


I'm not sure I'm ready to move on. I'm not even sure I want to be 'done'... although I'm sure that I don't want another. Although, I'm not sure that I'm sure.

Benjamin is big -- not fat and chubby, he's solid. You look at him and think, 'oh cute'... and then you lift him up and think 'holy ____, where's he storing the bricks?' There's nothing light about him. He's taken steps, he'll be walking within the next 10 days, I'd imagine. He's babbling with purpose - things like 'anana!' (banana) and 'oddy!' (Katie)... he shakes his head and has taken to some of his 'signs' such as MORE and ALL DONE. He's not a baby anymore... he's a toddler.

Holding one... wiping one... and disciplining another... its what I'm used to! What will I do when this is no longer the contents of my morning, afternoon and evening?! I've got my dear friend who is most likely cuddling and carrying around her beautiful 5.5 lb., 18" long newborn, Reese (notice I didn't mention 'soothing'... I don't remember those moments). I'm a little jealous. My other friend is 6 months pregnant with her third child as she hosts her 3 year old and 14 month old at home on a daily basis. I'm jealous. And those that are just around the corner about ready to break the news to the world that they are EXPECTING... (no, I have not heard yet, I've just been around the block enough to put money on it). I'm jealous.

No, no, no. Don't get all hot and bothered and begin making notes on what you're going to say to me when you see me next. I don't want to hear it and I won't listen... my heart speaks loudest of all. And like I said. I'm sure... and I'm not sure that I'm sure. There's nothing I can do but cut through the honeymoon of it all and realize the honeymoon of the 'here and now' -- I should be jealous of MYSELF. I mean, I'm sleeping (for the most part)... I'm not nursing (that just reminded me, I need a new training bra)... my kids don't scream without some way of being soothed. Soothed 'quickly', might I add...

But oh! The ANTICIPATION of the birth... the ELATION of the newborn in the hospital (I love that first day)... the EXCITEMENT of bringing him/her home for the first time... the ORGANIZATION of juggling more kids than you've ever juggled before... the daily AFFIRMATION that this one belongs to you and you'd die for it. Yes, so much more is involved but I don't seem to remember all that...

Honestly, the only reason that I'm not jumping back into the saddle is because of photography. I have a dream to truly invest myself into this profession and I'm excited to see where it takes me... slowly but surely, I will mold my desires for another baby into something that I believe God is creating in my heart.

The desire to capture all that surrounds me on a daily basis. There is so much awesomeness in my children, in YOUR children, that I've yet to completely indulge myself in what God has given us.

Oi.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Oh Ben...


Benjamin woke this morning after 13 hours of sleep... it was wonderful! And just what his little body needed after being sick for so long. I have high hopes that his body is recuperating and will be back to 100% before the week is out.

He took a shower with Dad today... I had to grab the camera. Check out my photography blog for more pics of this cute boy.

Oh yeah... and he's been WALKING! I've been dreaming of this day for soooo long.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Daily Tidbits.

1. THE LOGICAL WAY TO MAKE A GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICH, by Katie Schei

Butter one side of each piece of bread.
Place cheese slices in the middle of those two pieces of bread.
Place sandwich on griddle.
Garnish the top of the sandwich with mini pieces of cheese.
When flipping the sandwich the mini cheese pieces will be just warm and gooey enough that they will not fall off but will instead sear themselves to the underside of your sandwich and get crispy making for the MOST AMAZING GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICH EVER.

Mother seconds that motion. I will always make my grilled sandwiches that way from now on. A restaurant could actually brand that sandwich!




2. William (son of a poker player and an aspiring photographer) thought this would be a cool picture so he set it up and asked me to take a picture from this angle.

Mother seconds that motion.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Hannah-Banana

I had the privilege of spending last weekend at home with my little sister, Hannah. It was very special that as I was filling my tank at the Costco gas station on the way out of town, I received a text from Hannah saying simply, 'I need you right now :('. I was so excited to be able to text back, 'On my way out of town now. I'll see you in about 6 hours.' I don't believe at that moment she had any idea that I was coming... it had been a very last minute decision for Katie and I to haul over there early Friday afternoon.

Thank you Kristen for your support in being able to take my boys for the afternoon... you were quite the sight with a slew of 5 boys under the age of 5 and a very pregnant figure! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Hannah was 6 days into recovering from her head on collision. The collision happened on a two lane road - the speed limit is 50mph and Hannah believes she was traveling anywhere from 40-45mph while the other car was likely going 50mph. Hannah remembers the moment she looked up and there was a car directly in front of her, she remembered nothing of the accident for the first day or so following the event. She then began to have flashbacks... the impact, the smell, her own screaming.

When I arrived on Friday, I hugged her so tightly and cried. How do I describe how Hannah fits into my life? Hmmmm... she is indispensable. Nothing and no one could ever be what she is to me. She is refreshing to be around, easy to love and incredible to watch as she just lives her life with the gifts that God has given her. She's my sister. My only sister. We have a bond that, although separated by 14 years of age, allows us to look to each other for support, share clothes, poke fun at, tell secrets to, and talk about our parents with... (sorry Mom and Dad). I adore her... and not only do I love her, I truly like her and look up to her in so many ways.

She is doing well following the accident. I've had many people ask about her and her well-being. Her nose was broken from 'meeting' the airbag, if you will. BUT it broke straight so it did not need to be straightened out by the doctors. Her knee was, for lack of better words, 'filleted open' down to the bone and it took 100 stitches to sew her up - Mom's doing an excellent job of keeping it cleaned and bandaged. The bruising and soreness from the seat belt and air bag is lessening day by day as I'm sure the stiffness is. The only concern was this last Saturday while I was there... Hannah began passing a noticeable amount of blood in her urine along with sharp abdominal pains. This was likely due to the internal bleeding she suffered from having her spleen damaged in the crash. The prescription was rest and more rest with symptoms to look out for... none of which manifested themselves the next day! Praise the Lord!

Thank you for all your prayers and support during this time. I was able to be with her and love on her for a couple of days which was much needed -- Katie and I made it back over the pass as the winter storm was in full swing on Snoqualmie. Fortunately, as I approached the pass, the restrictions were updated from "chains required" to "traction tires advised"... and as I approached the latter summit they were updated again from "traction tires advised" back to "chains required". Just in the nick of time! I had chains with me and had practiced putting them on - but oh was I thankful!

I praise God for Hannah's survival, and as a good friend reminded me early on, 'don't get caught up on the what ifs' and so I'm praying for the clarity of mind to stay in the here and now. It has been an incredible feat that God has taken my family through - one we will forever be grateful for as we watch Hannah grow in her walk with the Lord and into her later years.

I love you, Banana. (photo: top Row, 3rd from the left with white shirt)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Things that I love...

1. A delicious meal made from all the 'stuff' in my pantry...



(Here I made my own marinara sauce with 'extra chunkiness', topped it with an egg, sprinkled Parmesan cheese over the top and baked it for 24 minutes. Serve with a piece of sourdough bread! Thank you, Martha.)

2. The 'perfect spread' of produce on the island in my kitchen awaiting its demise. Assortment of apples, partially green bananas, a couple avocados, a lemon, a lime, garlic and some cherry tomatoes - which I pureed and utilized in tonight's meal since they were wonderfully ripe! The colors are so beautiful especially right after the kitchen's been wiped down... and the fact that I've got any of the above ingredients at my fingertips is always relaxing.


***PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE ON HAND AND WHY! I LOVE KNOWING WHAT MAKES THE MOST SENSE TO HAVE AROUND... I usually have a couple onions, as well.***

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Grapes and Gripes

Safeway ran out of Red Seedless Grapes when they were on sale for $.88/lb so I picked up a raincheck a few weeks ago as I was checking out... I bought 6.5 lbs. of Red Seedless Grapes today. And I've decided buying them during a week when they're NOT on sale, is probably the best way to buy them. The selection is beautiful!

I do believe this is the first time I've pulled out an entire 2 lb. clump of grapes from the plastic bag with only a couple stragglers left behind... it was rather picturesque, if you will...


And secondly, my poor husband. He walks in the door tonight and we're all ecstatic to see him! Then he begins to just... well... 'be around' while I'm preparing the house for bedtime. And I started to get angry! He wasn't 'not doing anything' or 'getting the kids over-excited'... he was just 'being'. He asked me to not be so upset with him (bless his heart, he didn't even suspect that there was reason for me to be mad at him, he just simply met me in the middle and it took the edge off). I then understood that I was mad at him because he has interrupted the way that I do things when he's not around at bedtime - which has been a lot lately due to work. But I'm not used to having him here... whether he's helping or not, I was getting mad.

What gives?! I relaxed and now he is reading bedtime stories to the kids in the living room while I blog.

Hm. This IS nice come to think of it.

Monday, March 09, 2009

Snow Snow Go Away... come again sometime in May.

This is ridiculous.

We awoke this morning to a 'dusting' of snow... but it just kept coming. Mid-morning it began sticking and has now accumulated 3-4 inches on our back patio and drive. The kids dug out all their snow gear from the back of the coat closet and escaped into the winter wonderland for, what I desperately hope to be, a last hooray!


Update:

Hannah was not released this morning as her blood count was dropping. It sounds as though it was due to lacerations found in her spleen. They will continue to monitor her for another day and hope to release her tomorrow.

The woman in the other vehicle was listed in critical condition this morning. Prayer is needed all around right now.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

The Grace of God


This afternoon I received a call from my older brother, Geoff. Geoff lives in Cleveland, Ohio, and whenever he calls it creates in me an exhilaration that is not unlike what I felt when my Dad came home from work as I was growing up. I answered the phone to an emptiness realizing that I had just missed his call. I called back immediately. He answered with a catch in his throat and it took not more than a few words to realize that something was wrong.

"First off, Hannah's ok." He mentioned this, I'm sure, to keep me from frantic mood swings as I began to absorb the rest of what he was about to tell me. "She was in a head-on collision and is in the hospital. Its not life-threatening..." and he had to pause. He hung for a moment waiting for the ability to speak again. I tried to get him to speak up and release ANY information he had but he simply couldn't give me much. He had spoken with my Dad as he was walking into the Emergency Room to be with my sister who had just arrived in the aid car.

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Hannah Catherine Berges. Born in 1993 - the daughter and sister of a family so closely knit together. She was knit into our lives in a way that only God could have ordained. Her existence has changed everyone around her and just today we were caught red-handed as we've taken life so casually. We've assumed an attitude of being invincible, or even worse, "cared for" and "entitled to life" as we know it.

Hannah was in a head-on collision today going 50 mph. The impact was severe - totaling both vehicles involved. She is fairing well with no more than a broken nose and a deep cut in her leg. She will be released tomorrow morning to go home and recuperate.

Hannah, I praise God for you and your health. I love you so deeply it hurts to not be with you right now... I'm so glad David was there.

Our God is a God of grace. All glory to Him.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Here we go again...



My dear friend, Jesseca Emerson, is laid up at home on bed rest with her third. Little Baby Girl Emerson is due to arrive 6 weeks from now but it will be shorter for reasons that only the doctors seem to completely understand. We expect to meet this little one somewhere around the 1st of April, if not sooner.

Here is an old blog I wrote about Jesseca and I after the utter shock of taking four children into public following the birth of my second, William, and her second, Regan. Jess, we have our work cut out for us now. Where do you want to go first?!

I love you, friend. I can't wait to meet yet another adorable Emerson girl. And Riley, get your light saber out, you've got a couple princesses to protect.

(photos: Regan Anne (2yrs), 9/08 and Riley David (5yrs), 9/08)

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Utensil Happy.

Ben used a utensil for the first time this afternoon. He was smitten with this yellow fork... "there's so many things I can do with this yellow fork", he thought to himself.






Monday, March 02, 2009

Photography Blog

Please keep updated with my photography blog. I'm excited about the opportunities that God keeps giving me as I continue walking with Him in all of this...

My Current To Do List.

I wear flip flops around my house so that I am unaware of all the little crumbs living on my floor. I do believe this morning has been made less than wonderful due to the fact that I cannot find my flip-flops.

Here's my to do list:

- scrub all surfaces in my kitchen and make them SHINY!
- sweep the hardwood floors
- replenish my hand towel and washcloth supply downstairs
- wash all dirty hand towels and washcloths
- tag another bag of consignment clothes
- edit second half of the images for the church
- call April
- fold laundry upstairs
- remove stain from my carpet
- clean up Ben's pee spot upstairs
- wash 'accident' blankets from Will's bed
- organize kids' clothes in totes... get rid of pile in my room
- make dinner club dinner
- grocery game shop
- CONTINUE TO MAINTAIN ILLNESS IN OUR HOUSE - YES ALL THREE KIDS